margaritacochita

I haven't updated in forever.
I've been thinking.
I want to say thank you to all the lovely people who follow me on here, because looking at it now, most if not all of the things I post are dreadful. I'm embarrassed.
I want to thank you for putting up with it and for being wonderful and not saying anything.
That is very nice of you.

OK.

I haven't uploaded anything in forever because I've been really busy writing songs. I NEVER WRITE SONGS.
Well, before the past few months I didn't.
But now all of a sudden it's like my self expression has exploded out of me through my mouth.
That sounds gross.
I would post my lyrics, but I feel weird about it.
The songs I write seem so much more personal than any poem I ever could have written.
I'm nervous to post them because I dont write in a very cryptic way at all- everything is laid out.
But woietshjdiuhyilduhls I don't know.
Maybe I will.
Maybe I won't.

ANGST DONE.

I want to scream
and run so fast that my
soul doesn't touch the ground
and sing so loud that it breaks
the sound barrier
and write words never thought of
and tear myself limb from limb until
there is nothing to be ashamed of anymore.

Do you remember in Cinderella?
How the day after the ball, Cinderella is dancing through the house, smiling and humming and being generally obnoxious?
Yea, that's me right now.

You know that thing?
When you think something is true, but you know that the opposite is true.
And it makes you sad.
But sometimes you think it might make you happy.
And all you need to do is sit around and think for a long time about nothing.
And then everything will make sense.

yea.